I'm headed to bed last night and really feeling the crunch as the last few hundred dollars are disappearing out of my check book. I still need a job and the fantastic interviews I had Friday are a distant memory. Becoming more distant as the days go by and I hear nothing from them.
As I climb into my bed and begin to pray about no work the Holy Spirit begins to nudge via the chorus of and old hymn played in that great jukebox in my mind.
Is your all on the altar of sacrifice laid?
Your heart does the Spirit control?
You can only be blessed,
And have peace and sweet rest,
As you yield Him your body and soul.
As I lay there in bed, the answer is "No." I'm still holding back. Dear God please increase my faith so that I want to let go of the things I now cling.
It took me a while but I found this YouTube video and it's the closest to the version I grew up singing. Enjoy.
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
Monday, June 3, 2013
Where do I go from here?
For almost 3 years now, I've been blogging my Bible study. I've blogged all the NT except the four gospels and the book of Revelation. Not sure what my next step is or book or if this blog has run it's course in my life and served it's purpose.
I may be sporadic in how often I post as I seek what God wants.
Peter
I may be sporadic in how often I post as I seek what God wants.
Peter
Friday, May 31, 2013
2 Corinthians 13
2 Corinthians 13
New International Version (NIV)
13 This will be my third visit to you. “Every matter must be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.” 2 I already gave you a warning when I was with you the second time. I now repeat it while absent: On my return I will not spare those who sinned earlier or any of the others, 3 since you are demanding proof that Christ is speaking through me. He is not weak in dealing with you, but is powerful among you. 4 For to be sure, he was crucified in weakness, yet he lives by God’s power. Likewise, we are weak in him, yet by God’s power we will live with him in our dealing with you.
Paul gives a final warning for them to get their house in order. Promises not to pull any punches when he gets there. Reminds them that God is not weak.
That is what hits home for me today. God is not weak. When I "get away" with sin, I didn't. God is giving me a chance to repent.
As I read verse 5 I am taking a hard look at my life. I am in the faith, but there is so much that needs to go. No parent wants to use their authority to punish and I need to allow God to make the changes in me so when Christ returns I will be doing as I should.
11 Finally, brothers and sisters, rejoice! Strive for full restoration, encourage one another, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you.
12 Greet one another with a holy kiss. 13 All God’s people here send their greetings.
14 May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all.
Verse 11 holds great encouragement in that we can be fully restored. We are not cast out to never return.
Thursday, May 30, 2013
2 Corinthians 12:11-21
2 Corinthians 12:11-21
Paul continues with his displeasure at having to defend himself. One verse slammed me today.
21 I am afraid that when I come again my God will humble me before you, and I will be grieved over many who have sinned earlier and have not repented of the impurity, sexual sin and debauchery in which they have indulged.
Though Paul is not going to come again and see me, Christ is coming again. There are "pet" sins in my life that need to go...STILL.
Paul continues with his displeasure at having to defend himself. One verse slammed me today.
21 I am afraid that when I come again my God will humble me before you, and I will be grieved over many who have sinned earlier and have not repented of the impurity, sexual sin and debauchery in which they have indulged.
Though Paul is not going to come again and see me, Christ is coming again. There are "pet" sins in my life that need to go...STILL.
Friday, May 24, 2013
God is faithful.
I am deviating from my usual blog today because God used other sources to teach me a lesson and I'd like to share.
So I awake late this morning. Almost 4 hours later than I would have liked. Time to start setting an alarm every day. I begin the daily battle for my mind. Whom shall I serve? What shall I do? I desperately need a job and the pressure is getting to me. I've had peace, yet as the last check from section 30 comes on Tue, the reality of zero income is hitting home and fear has begun to grip my heart.
I open facebook to check my messages and within the first few posts I see my friends David and Caryn had posted a verse I have heard a thousand times. John 15:5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." They go on to say "Abide...dwell on...be enveloped by...be consumed with..." Immediately I am convicted. I am neither enveloped nor consumed by God. He is part of my life, but not my life. This is an area that God has been working on me for the past two years as I slowly surrender pieces of my life to Him.
God does not stop there. The song Our God was playing in that "jukebox in my mind" while I was reading that verse. The song I based on Romans 8:31 "What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?" So I YouTube the song. I immediately take note of the verse that appears in the opening of the video. 1 Peter 5:8 "Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."
I have not been self-controlled or even God controlled. I've allowed my passions and desires to rule. I've not been abiding and I've been trusting in money to provide my needs. God I want to know you. I want to serve you. I want to live for you. I can't do it alone. Increase my faith Lord that I may love you more.
Enjoy the song folks.
So I awake late this morning. Almost 4 hours later than I would have liked. Time to start setting an alarm every day. I begin the daily battle for my mind. Whom shall I serve? What shall I do? I desperately need a job and the pressure is getting to me. I've had peace, yet as the last check from section 30 comes on Tue, the reality of zero income is hitting home and fear has begun to grip my heart.
I open facebook to check my messages and within the first few posts I see my friends David and Caryn had posted a verse I have heard a thousand times. John 15:5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." They go on to say "Abide...dwell on...be enveloped by...be consumed with..." Immediately I am convicted. I am neither enveloped nor consumed by God. He is part of my life, but not my life. This is an area that God has been working on me for the past two years as I slowly surrender pieces of my life to Him.
God does not stop there. The song Our God was playing in that "jukebox in my mind" while I was reading that verse. The song I based on Romans 8:31 "What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?" So I YouTube the song. I immediately take note of the verse that appears in the opening of the video. 1 Peter 5:8 "Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."
I have not been self-controlled or even God controlled. I've allowed my passions and desires to rule. I've not been abiding and I've been trusting in money to provide my needs. God I want to know you. I want to serve you. I want to live for you. I can't do it alone. Increase my faith Lord that I may love you more.
Enjoy the song folks.
Thursday, May 23, 2013
2 Corinthians 12:1-10
2 Corinthians 12:1-10
New International Version (NIV)
Paul speaks about his 3 years of training in heaven. He is so embarrassed boasting about it that stopped taking in the first person. Paul was given a problem to deal with so that he would rely on God and not on his own ability and thus prove to Paul that God's grace is enough. Paul learned this lesson so well that he took delight in hardship so he could experience a deeper understanding of God's grace.
God's grace is sufficient. I don't need to turn to drugs or alcohol or sex. Trusting in God and God alone during times of stress (like my current unemployment) is what will get me through.
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
2 Corinthians 11:21b-33
2 Corinthians 11:21b-33
New International Version (NIV)
30 If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness. 31 The God and Father of the Lord Jesus, who is to be praised forever, knows that I am not lying. 32 In Damascus the governor under King Aretas had the city of the Damascenes guarded in order to arrest me. 33 But I was lowered in a basket from a window in the wall and slipped through his hands.
Paul continues his sarcastic response to the the false teachers. In verse 21 he states "speaking as a fool" and in verse 23 "I am out of my mind to talk like this.". So we know that Paul did not want to speak about is credentials. Paul was a Hebrew, an Israelite and a descendant of Abraham. He was a better servant because he worked harder, imprisoned more, beaten more and exposed to death more.
Five times he received the 40 minus one. Why the minus one. If a person died during the whipping there would be no charges against the one doing the beating as long as only 40 lashes were given. Therefore they only gave 39 to ensure they were "within legal limits". In other words, enough people died during this beating they had to make a law about how much is too much. FIVE times Paul endured this.
Three times Paul was beaten with rods, he'd been stoned, three times ship wrecked trying to get someplace to share Christ. I'm trying to imagine floating at night in the open ocean.
What do I know of suffering for a cause as worthy as the gospel? What have I done for my Lord and my Savior? I look at my life and and wonder if there is enough evidence to convict me of being a Christian were I accused of it in a court of law.
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
2 Corinthians 11:16-21a
2 Corinthians 11:16-21a
New International Version (NIV)
In response to the false teachers calling his authority into question, Paul begins to respond in a such a sarcastic manner it would be humorous if the truth were not so sad. Verse 19 and 20 says it all. In exchange for a new "flashy" preacher they were exchanging the freedom of the Gospel Paul preached for bondage and being robbed. Verse 21 is VERY sarcastic.
My first thought for application is our current political mess. With all the lies and abuse of power and both sides of our political system fighting each other while the country dies. I could make that application especially since the Jewish nation is a Theocracy (government ruled by religion) the spiritual leaders had more power than the political leaders.
However there is a deeper application. The world, the flesh and the devil. How often I am a fool and fall into slavery to the sin I once lived in. The gospel clearly tells me I am FREE from sin and yet I put up even after it slaps me in the face time and time again.
The cycle needs to stop.
Monday, May 20, 2013
2 Corinthians 11:5-15
2 Corinthians 11:5-15
New International Version (NIV)
12 And I will keep on doing what I am doing in order to cut the ground from under those who want an opportunity to be considered equal with us in the things they boast about. 13 For such people are false apostles, deceitful workers, masquerading as apostles of Christ. 14 And no wonder, for Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light. 15 It is not surprising, then, if his servants also masquerade as servants of righteousness. Their end will be what their actions deserve.
Paul gave his life for the preaching of the gospel and yet there were those with better speaking abilities who were wooing believers away and causing them to doubt Paul and the true gospel. Paul loved them enough to keep doing what was right knowing that the false teachers would eventually fail. He also warned of Satan who masquerades as an angel of light, so his servant can too.
I search for personal application today and I know that the leadership in my church is solid. I know they love me. I need vet out the people I do listen to to ensure they preach from the word of God.
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
2 Corinthians 11:1-4
2 Corinthians 11:1-4
New International Version (NIV)
11 I hope you will put up with me in a little foolishness. Yes, please put up with me! 2 I am jealous for you with a godly jealousy. I promised you to one husband, to Christ, so that I might present you as a pure virgin to him. 3 But I am afraid that just as Eve was deceived by the serpent’s cunning, your minds may somehow be led astray from your sincere and pure devotion to Christ. 4 For if someone comes to you and preaches a Jesus other than the Jesus we preached, or if you receive a different spirit from the Spirit you received, or a different gospel from the one you accepted, you put up with it easily enough.
Paul is talking about being lead astray from the gospel and from Jesus Christ.
I am convicted at how quickly I can be lead away from what I know to be true and right. Only three days ago I'm in church singing "there is no one like our God. We will praise you..." and yet this morning I had to make a conscious choice to confess and come back to God as I'd fallen away so far and so quickly. I am convinced that this what Jesus meant in Luke 9:23 "Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me."
Today I chose Christ.
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
2 Corinthians 10:12-18
2 Corinthians 10:12-18
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At the end of my days the measure of my life will be compared to Jesus Christ's life and His alone. Thank you God for you grace. Thank you Jesus for you sacrifice for my sin. Thank you Holy Spirit for convicting me and giving me that spark of faith that began this journey.
13 We, however, will not boast beyond proper limits, but will confine our boasting to the sphere of service God himself has assigned to us, a sphere that also includes you. 14 We are not going too far in our boasting, as would be the case if we had not come to you, for we did get as far as you with the gospel of Christ. 15 Neither do we go beyond our limits by boasting of work done by others. Our hope is that, as your faith continues to grow, our sphere of activity among you will greatly expand, 16 so that we can preach the gospel in the regions beyond you. For we do not want to boast about work already done in someone else’s territory. 17 But, “Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord.” 18 For it is not the one who commends himself who is approved, but the one whom the Lord commends.
Paul only boasted of the work that the Lord gave him. He did not take credit of another's work. His hope was that as result of his current work, that would lead to more opportunities to share the gospel. In the end it was the Lord he said we should all boast in.
I tend to brag about things. Toys. Material possessions. I need to start thinking along the lines that where I am is a ministry. How can this ministry be used to create more opportunity to minister for Christ?
Monday, May 13, 2013
2 Corinthians 10:7-11
2 Corinthians 10:7-11
New International Version (NIV)
The way a person looks has no bearing on what they know so I should not just a person by the way they look. Also I need to make sure my life matches my message. This blog for instance. Am I the same person in public that present here on the cyber page?
Thursday, May 9, 2013
2 Corinthians 10:1-5
2 Corinthians 10:1-6
New International Version (NIV)
10 By the humility and gentleness of Christ, I appeal to you—I, Paul, who am “timid” when face to face with you, but “bold” toward you when away!
My temper was huge just a few years ago. I am awed and amazed at how differently situations go when I approach people with humility and a gentleness that could only have come from God. People who have known me for years have noticed the difference. The ones who have benefited greatly are my children.
Thank you for those changes you have brought into my life.
2 I
beg you that when I come I may not have to be as bold as I expect to be
toward some people who think that we live by the standards of this
world.
Confrontation is not fun. Even the apostle Paul did not want to do it, but he would if required. God give me your wisdom in confronting those who need to be confronted and just listening and coming along side those who are hurting because you are working in their lives.
3 For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. 4 The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. 5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.6 And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete.
So many battles going on in this world. I just take a look at the mess the USA is in and I could take a side and get involved and push for my candidate or my party or my favorite pet project and as an a Christian who is an American I should participate in my local government. However the battle in America is not just in politics. The devil is alive and well I need to be praying and God I confess that I just don't.
If I take every though captive to Christ, every moment of every day, my life will change. Dramatically.
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
2 Corinthians 9:6-15
2 Corinthians 9:6-15
New International Version (NIV)
I am to give what I have decided and to so willingly and cheerfully.
8 And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. 9 As it is written:
“They have freely scattered their gifts to the poor;
their righteousness endures forever.”
God has promised to meet my needs, not my greeds.
their righteousness endures forever.”
God has promised to meet my needs, not my greeds.
10 Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness. 11 You will be enriched in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.
12 This service that you perform is not only supplying the needs of the Lord’s people but is also overflowing in many expressions of thanks to God. 13 Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, others will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the gospel of Christ, and for your generosity in sharing with them and with everyone else. 14 And in their prayers for you their hearts will go out to you, because of the surpassing grace God has given you. 15 Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!The purpose of my giving is a show of gratitude for what he has given me. Then by my giving the needs of others are met and they too have an opportunity to praise God.
The act of giving in itself is a gift according to verse 15. I never thought of it that way. I must rethink giving again.
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
2 Corinthians 9:1-5
2 Corinthians 9:1-5
New International Version (NIV)
Paul continues in his encouragement and praise of the church at Corinth. Yet his is also a realist and sends people ahead to help them be ready.
I am convicted that I lack an eagerness to help and concerned at how hollow my faith can prove in so many areas. I also lack a generosity that I once had.
God I ask you to soften my heart. All that has been taken from me in the past two years has made me less and less willing to give of what I have left. And yet even as I type this may attitude should be that what I have is yours...I'm not there yet.
Monday, May 6, 2013
2 Corinthians 8:16-24
2 Corinthians 8:16-24
New International Version (NIV)
22 In addition, we are sending with them our brother who has often proved to us in many ways that he is zealous, and now even more so because of his great confidence in you. 23 As for Titus, he is my partner and co-worker among you; as for our brothers, they are representatives of the churches and an honor to Christ. 24 Therefore show these men the proof of your love and the reason for our pride in you, so that the churches can see it.
As Paul is discussing the merits of Titus and an unnamed brother who has proved "zealous", there is only verse 16 that has pierced my heart today. It was God who put the concern into the heart of Titus.
Dear God, my heart has been consumed by my own pleasure. I need you to put a love for you in my heart. I need you to put a love for someone other than me in my heart.
Thursday, May 2, 2013
2 Corinthians 8:1-15
2 Corinthians 8:1-15
New International Version (NIV)
8 And now, brothers and sisters, we want you to know about the grace that God has given the Macedonian churches. 2 In the midst of a very severe trial, their overflowing joy and their extreme poverty welled up in rich generosity. 3 For I testify that they gave as much as they were able, and even beyond their ability. Entirely on their own, 4 they urgently pleaded with us for the privilege of sharing in this service to the Lord’s people. 5 And they exceeded our expectations: They gave themselves first of all to the Lord, and then by the will of God also to us. 6 So we urged Titus, just as he had earlier made a beginning, to bring also to completion this act of grace on your part. 7 But since you excel in everything—in faith, in speech, in knowledge, in complete earnestness and in the love we have kindled in you—see that you also excel in this grace of giving.
8 I am not commanding you, but I want to test the sincerity of your love by comparing it with the earnestness of others. 9 For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though he was rich, yet for your sake he became poor, so that you through his poverty might become rich.10 And here is my judgment about what is best for you in this matter. Last year you were the first not only to give but also to have the desire to do so. 11 Now finish the work, so that your eager willingness to do it may be matched by your completion of it, according to your means. 12 For if the willingness is there, the gift is acceptable according to what one has, not according to what one does not have.
13 Our desire is not that others might be relieved while you are hard pressed, but that there might be equality. 14 At the present time your plenty will supply what they need, so that in turn their plenty will supply what you need. The goal is equality, 15 as it is written: “The one who gathered much did not have too much, and the one who gathered little did not have too little.”
New Testament church giving is supposed to be motivated by love for fellow believers. It's to be given joyfully for the benefit of others. Our giving is in truth a test of the sincerity of our love.
I don't give what I should. That needs to change.
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
2 Corinthians 7:2-16
2 Corinthians 7:2-16
New International Version (NIV)
Paul wronged, corrupted or exploited no one. That is my goal as well.
5 For when we came into Macedonia, we had no rest, but we were harassed at every turn—conflicts on the outside, fears within. 6 But God, who comforts the downcast, comforted us by the coming of Titus, 7 and not only by his coming but also by the comfort you had given him. He told us about your longing for me, your deep sorrow, your ardent concern for me, so that my joy was greater than ever.
When down and harrased wait on God and he will lift me up.
8 Even if I caused you sorrow by my letter, I do not regret it. Though I did regret it—I see that my letter hurt you, but only for a little while— 9 yet now I am happy, not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance. For you became sorrowful as God intended and so were not harmed in any way by us. 10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death. 11 See what this godly sorrow has produced in you: what earnestness, what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, what readiness to see justice done. At every point you have proved yourselves to be innocent in this matter. 12 So even though I wrote to you, it was neither on account of the one who did the wrong nor on account of the injured party, but rather that before God you could see for yourselves how devoted to us you are. 13 By all this we are encouraged.
The expression, "This is going to hurt me more than it is going to hurt you." has truth to it. Confronting or correcting a bother that is in sin is not easy. Just yesterday I had to speak to someone and I had a pit in my stomach that made me want to lose my diner.
Done properly correction can bring about Godly sorrow which drives the recipient back to God and back to fellowship.
If I feel guilty about something and it keeps me from Christian fellowship and drives me from Bible study and prayer, that is not Godly sorrow. That is guilt and condemnation that is either from myself or from Satan and his demons.
In addition to our own encouragement, we were especially delighted to see how happy Titus was, because his spirit has been refreshed by all of you. 14 I had boasted to him about you, and you have not embarrassed me. But just as everything we said to you was true, so our boasting about you to Titus has proved to be true as well. 15 And his affection for you is all the greater when he remembers that you were all obedient, receiving him with fear and trembling. 16 I am glad I can have complete confidence in you.
Paul was delighted to see his spiritual children behave in the way he'd taught them. It's no different for God in my life. He takes delight in me following what I have been taught.
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
2 Corinthians 6:14-7:1
2 Corinthians 6:14-7:1
New International Version (NIV)
A yoke was put on two oxen so they could pull a cart or perhaps a plow together as a team. As a Christian I have different values than non-Christians. Therefore I should not enter into any binding relationship with them. Marriage for example or perhaps business together. These are all places where my standards in Christ will be higher than my non-Christian counterpart.
For we are the temple of the living God. As God has said:
“I will live with them
and walk among them,
and I will be their God,
and they will be my people.”
and walk among them,
and I will be their God,
and they will be my people.”
17 Therefore,
“Come out from them
and be separate,
says the Lord.
Touch no unclean thing,
and I will receive you.”
and be separate,
says the Lord.
Touch no unclean thing,
and I will receive you.”
18 And,
“I will be a Father to you,
and you will be my sons and daughters,
says the Lord Almighty.”
and you will be my sons and daughters,
says the Lord Almighty.”
7 Therefore, since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God.
These verses are NOT saying I can't have unsaved friends. They are not saying I am to ignore or not speak to unbelievers. They are saying I am to be different. God has promised fellowship with me if I chose to walk with him. My life is to change the world through Christ.
Monday, April 29, 2013
2 Corinthians 6:3-11
2 Corinthians 6:3-13
New International Version (NIV)
I understand the point of not being a stumbling block as that has been addressed before by Paul in other portions of scripture. Upon reaching the word commend I did not grasp it's use in the context. Upon looking it up I learned that commend can mean "Present as suitable for approval or acceptance". Now I can wrap my mind around Paul's point.
in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; 5 in beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; 6 in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; 7 in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the right hand and in the left; 8 through glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as impostors; 9 known, yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; 10 sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything.
I notice that Paul uses good things and bad. His goal is to be worthy. I am to assure that I present myself in a worth manner for God's glory no matter what occurs in my life.
11 We have spoken freely to you, Corinthians, and opened wide our hearts to you.12 We are not withholding our affection from you, but you are withholding yours from us. 13 As a fair exchange—I speak as to my children—open wide your hearts also.
Am I withholding my heart from someone? God if there is someone to whom I need to open my heart to, convict me of it.
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