This morning I slept in. Though I "woke" at 5 am and again at 6 am I just kept rolling over till suddenly it was 705am. Ugh. Gotta MOVE if I'm going to log on to school by 8 am. Before my feet hit the floor I realize that I would not have time to blog. A brief prayer was sent that I would not forget to blog today.
So I made it to school and had an OK day. My issue was temptation with certain sins that have been part of my life so long that I am happy when I "do better" than yesterday and manage it to what I wrongly perceive as "acceptable levels". When we rationalize our sin we tell ourselves rational lies. God is very clear. He hates sin.
So this afternoon I cry out to God, "Why is this sin still present in my life? I don't hate it like you do. In truth, I like it more than you some days." I left it there planning on speaking to Steve (my accountability partner).
Later, and I'm talking just a short while later, I'm listening to Pastor Mark Driscoll, of Mars Hill Church, preach on the book of Luke. He was in chapter 17. "32 Remember Lot's wife. 33 Whoever tries to keep their life will lose it, whoever loses their life will preserve it."
When the angel of the Lord was practically dragging Lot and his family from Sodom, she looked back longingly to her house and way of life and showed what was the most important things to her. Her husband suffered and her children suffered hardship because of her choice.
The sermon went on to talk about where is your greatest hearts desire is. I can say that my greatest desire is to serve God. Therefore, I do know I am saved. However the cost of this sin in my life has been great and it also sent Jesus to the cross. He nailed it there.
So I have a choice. Keep my life (this sin) and lose it or lose my life (in Christ) and he will preserve it. What choices do you have to make?
May the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit, brothers and sisters. Amen.